8th Month

The mighty me has fallen. It’s been awhile since I felt so sick. Apparently I was told that it’s because I have a high immune system, hence I don’t fall sick easily. However if I did, it’d be very serious. Went to the doctors yesterday and was told I got infected with some virus. I feel so weak, and restless, and useless pretty much. My mental state isn’t very healthy at this moment too. I’ve been crying a lot. Feeling very down. I can’t even complete simple task such as grabbing food or combing my hair without being stressed out by it. My room is in a messy, I need to clean, but I’m so lazy, and can’t be fucked doing it.

When in times like this, I just sit and do nothing. I’ve to take so many medication that I feel so drowsy all the time. I just wanna curl up into a ball and hide away from the earth. I wish someone could cuddle me. Just a big warm hug, to make me feel calm again.

Today might not be the day that I feel good but that’s ok, cause I know the down time will pass eventually, and soon enough, I’ll be ok.

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Updates

I cannot believe the last post i wrote was in June 😦 i haven’t update any of my photos from my camera. And i did not blog about my trip to Perth and Vietnam yet. Things have been piling up and im just so stressed. I was on anti-depressant last month and finished my prescriptions and haven’t got to the doctor to grab somemore. I need to get back on track with my life.

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Happy 50th Daddy!

Happy Birthday Daddy! Time flies, he’s 50 years old now. As we grow older, we often neglect the little things in our life, like our family. We take them for granted all the time. I hope i can get successful quicker and so that they can retire early.

I’ve been stressed out for the past couple of weeks, had very bad breakdowns, but at this current state, im feeling better. I just visited my counselor and i’ll be meeting her more often for a regular period of time to lean how to manage my stress, and learn more about my own body, so i’ll know how to cope with difficulties if i were to breakdown again.

So much homework, so lame, so tired. So many photoshoots coming up which makes me happy tho. The Beaufort Street Festival fashion committee is back in action so im pretty stoked. Looking forward to volunteering for Telstra Perth Fashion Festival in the next 2 weeks too 🙂

By the way, i’ve created a Twitter account, so i could vent my frustrations, i hate Twitter, but oh well. Not gonna say what’s my user cause i don’t really care if people follow me or not, i just want a place to rant. If you wanna follow me, do it in Instagram @cherylcherrychoe and/or like me in Facebook at Cheryl C Model 🙂

Sitting in the library, so sleepy, i feel like falling asleep soon. 40mins more till work time. Nay. Need sleep 😦

Ciaos.

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